Enough of this! now the truth…

“We have to let you go…

The client cancelled the contract

You do understand that we have no other choice, if we want to stay in business, right?”

“We have to let you go. Things are tough right now, with this new virus and the unpredictable future … sad but true, sorry to have to tell you this right now”

The raw emotions

Feeling like a failure

Was it my fault?

Is there anything I  could have done different to change this?

On no! my family

My children!

This is the worst time that they could have picked

To “let me go”

Go where?

Home and tell this to my family?

Tell friends?

I remember how excited I was

On my first day at work

Finally, money in the bank!

 

Enough!

No more tears

I have cried enough

God knows I have

I have placed myself before the judgement seat

And actually judged myself

Condemned myself

Allowed the enemy to speak, tell me lies

Telling me what a failure I am

 

Enough!

Now the truth

I am a child of God

My life is in His hands

He will provide

I don’t know how

I don’t even have a plan as to how I will move forward

I have been too busy grieving

The loss of a job

The loss of an opportunity

 

A picture on my wall

Catches my attention

It is a picture of a waterfall

I love waterfalls

Where does all that water come from

Gushing down those rocks

The beautiful well-watered plants near this amazing waterfall

God’s work

Wonderful

There is abundance

There is more than enough

 

Truth

God has always always taken care of me

Provided for and protected me

It has and always will be God

Watching over this girl

I lay down my head

On a pillow wet with tears

God will take care of me

I trust Him.

Amen.

Psalms 121 

I lift up my eyes to the hills.
    From where does my help come?
My help comes from the Lord,
    who made heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot be moved;
    he who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, he who keeps Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

The Lord is your keeper;
    the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

 The Lord will keep you from all evil;
    he will keep your life.
The Lord will keep
    your going out and your coming in
    from this time forth and forevermore.

 

 

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