“We have to let you go…
The client cancelled the contract
You do understand that we have no other choice, if we want to stay in business, right?”
“We have to let you go. Things are tough right now, with this new virus and the unpredictable future … sad but true, sorry to have to tell you this right now”
The raw emotions
Feeling like a failure
Was it my fault?
Is there anything I could have done different to change this?
On no! my family
My children!
This is the worst time that they could have picked
To “let me go”
Go where?
Home and tell this to my family?
Tell friends?
I remember how excited I was
On my first day at work
Finally, money in the bank!
Enough!
No more tears
I have cried enough
God knows I have
I have placed myself before the judgement seat
And actually judged myself
Condemned myself
Allowed the enemy to speak, tell me lies
Telling me what a failure I am
Enough!
Now the truth
I am a child of God
My life is in His hands
He will provide
I don’t know how
I don’t even have a plan as to how I will move forward
I have been too busy grieving
The loss of a job
The loss of an opportunity
A picture on my wall
Catches my attention
It is a picture of a waterfall
I love waterfalls
Where does all that water come from
Gushing down those rocks
The beautiful well-watered plants near this amazing waterfall
God’s work
Wonderful
There is abundance
There is more than enough
Truth
God has always always taken care of me
Provided for and protected me
It has and always will be God
Watching over this girl
I lay down my head
On a pillow wet with tears
God will take care of me
I trust Him.
Amen.
Psalms 121
I lift up my eyes to the hills.
From where does my help come?
My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot be moved;
he who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, he who keeps Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord is your keeper;
the Lord is your shade on your right hand.
The sun shall not strike you by day,
nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all evil;
he will keep your life.
The Lord will keep
your going out and your coming in
from this time forth and forevermore.
