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Staring out the window

Rain drops on the window glass

Tears in my eyes

What have I done?

They told me I would feel nothing

That I would recover in a few days

That they would take care of “it” for me

That this was the best thing to do

Yet I feel so empty


I feel worse than I felt before

Instead of relieve

It feels as if I just went through a train wrack


So many voices in my head

Inner Tension

Like a war

Was this the right decision?

Was it murder?

I gave up my Baby

I cannot undo what I have done

Where can I run?

Where do the thirsty find water?

Where do the hungry find bread?

Where do the rejected find safety?

Where will I find forgiveness?

Where will I be accepted?

Where is life found?


© Catherine Maina 2019


Matthew 11:28-30  (NIV)

 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”





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